i tot this was a teen flick initially and not wanting to watch it.. but seeing that it has gane quite a bit of positive reviews and no other good shows screening, so watch it with my jie jie. it feels kinda of wierd initially because this is really like the first date with my godsis.. i mean i went out with her before but usually there would be others.. this time, its more like a date.. anyway, i think we both enjoyed the movie. i tot the movie was beautifully shot, artistic in a kind of way.. glad i appreciate it that way.. anyway both me and godsis enjoyed the ending song whereby edward and bella danced to the slow tune... so nice!

finally got the name of the song too.. Flightless Bird, American Mouth. still couldnt decipher such a name and the lyrics totally got me lost.. but who cares.. its a beautiful song anyway.. promised to find it for jie jie.. will do that..

ok..more personal things here. i think godsis thinks i'm courting her. lol. i think she hinted no less than 3 times why I asked her out.. do gers really think that when a guy ask u out, thats because he is interested in you? actually, i jus enjoyed the company and nothing else. she is my Godsis.. well i clarify that to her when i send her home.. i hope she got my meaning.. she will be my lovable jie jie and hopefully, it stays this way.. Friends are forever but lovers might not last.. thats how i feel..

PD Dept first gathering dinner at T3 Azur


PD 2nd Dinner gathering at M Hotel..


Together with the bull

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

as i was on leave on fri bcos i have no mood to work recently.. holiday mood i guess. however, i still manage to squeeze out some time to visit Ren Ci Hospital to do some social work, a charitable event organised by my Co. I guess it really makes the day of the residents living in the hospital when we visit them. they are lonely old folks yearning for that little bit of attention from us.. sometimes, one only realise how blessed they are when they are able to GIVE than TAKE.. i know this theory since i was quite young but i always forgotten abt it.. but i never fail to remind myself about how fortunate life is to me when i was called upon to perform voluntary acts... so thanks to my Co. I'm able to contribute back to the society..

we just conduct simple acts like singing songs to the residents and bringing them some desserts and they can be so happy.. sometimes, life is just about simple acts of kindness, nothing too complicated.. this is how u learn to appreciate life..

Well for now, I'm just thankful with everything i got.. only when u learn to treasure then u truly possess...

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

Angel of Mine.~

recently i watched a korean drama and one phrase really struck me hard.. its says "if you can't love me, then at least use me.." at first, i thought it sounds really pathetic but on second thoughts, i really begin to think it sounds greatness. this is what true love really is about even if the other party dun really appreciates you.. i mean, as long as u did your part, the rest u really have to leave it to fate rite.. i mean there are so many things you cant control in life and there is really no happiness in forcing things to happen... the more u want something, u could find it drifting further away from you.. this is something i learn.. See, one do matures with age.. lolz.

ok.. i'm really looking forward to next tue.. YES! i finally arrange a movie date with my godsis which I mentioned in my last entry how feminie she has turned out recently.. i guess nothing much will happen but just a relaz and peaceful date with my godsis.. counting down the days.. lolz.

Richieously Yours,
Richard

I miss you~

i must say one thing.. time really heals all wounds.. well almost any wounds.. i'm feeling really great now. haha.. i can find the cheery me back again..

met up with upsers on fri (19 Dec)... i must say its a great feel to be with the guys again. the only thing i miss back with ups is the group of sincere frenz i made.. so i must say its a wonderful feeling to be close with my frenz again.. :) anyway, my godsis was there also.. i must say she look GORGEOUS.. haha. sexy. :p must go out with her more liao..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

A Holly, Jolly X'mas.~

u have made your most heartless choice yet.. i fully understand what you are trying to do now.. if this is the way its going to end, i have no choice but to accept it.. i hope you will be happy making this choice.. be happy...

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

Will you still love me tomorrow.. ~

i always tot that I have good self control.. but it seems i over-estimated myself.. i am so stupid to allow myself to be controlled by my emotions.. this shows that I'm weak. I dun like to be potrayed as weak.. i hate to be weak.. but each time i try to drag myself away from misery, it just seems like a vacuum which keeps dragging me deeper into the abyass of despair, desperation.

hell. wat am i suppose to do.. i cant do this to myself anymore.. i must be strong.. I can only keep repeating this to myself..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

~Last X'mas, I gave U my Heart. But U forsaken it.~

i'm a perfectionist.. i'm always trying to seek perfection.. i know nothing in this world is perfect. its a know fact. however, my headstrong character forbids me to believe this fact. thats why i'm always harbouring impossible dreamz.. dreamz they may be but it is dreamz that make life beautiful and mysterious..

however recently, i've begun to be enlightened by a new thinking.. the only way to seek perfection is to accept imperfection, only then, you will seek perfection. 'Chim' it may sound but somehow, i'm beginning to have a brief idea of what this means.. while the perfectionist in me refuse to embrace this idea, the realistic me knows that this is so true..

well, they do say Pisces are dreamers isnt it..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

Starry Starry night~

they say that when you are down the most, frenz will be there to lend you their support, either knowingly or unknowlingly.. thanks to my 2 lady frenz, i've managed to enjoy myself and forget the problems that plagued me recently.. anyway i've got over it and life has to go on.. i no longer care.. i can be a heartless bas**** if i want to.. and if i feel really pointless.. so now yes i can safely say i'm back to the cold me.. no matter what you said or do, i wont care as much as before.. care as a fren.. maybe 'yes' but nothing more.

I'm listenting to the album Angela Folk Acoustico.. its very peaceful and soothing.. the style i like where i can listen to my inner heart and sort my thoughts out..

More time now on the 'secret prize' which I've shared in my last post.. things are developing slowly but yet surely.. i prefer to take things slow.. one step at a time.. no rush. i dun want to mess it up ever.. Maybe.

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

I see your true colors..

they say in life, u win some, u lose some. life is all about balance and no one can win all the time.. how true these words are.

Win:
1) I received my confirmation letter today. 6 mths of hard work finally bore fruit. now i will proceed on to work even harder to achieve what i want and to build a name for myself.

2) I also received my exams transcript. I have been awarded 2nd upper class from my uni. considering that i am constantly battling my sleep demons, work and coping with my social life and yet achieving a 2nd upper class, I'm quite satisified with myself. I have even gone one step further to think that i can achieve 1st class but for now, I am satisified..

Lose:
I think the care for me is no longer there, if not, its no longer strong enough for me to feel it.. you are really heartless to me.. because of your personal reasons which i deemed selfish, you've chosen to forsake my love for you and take the easy way out. life is all about the easy way out i guess.. i hope you dont have any regrets.. i hope that i dont have any regrets.. i really hope..

in life, besides win and lose, there is always a catch, a secret prize which is hidden from your side and will only reveal itself at the very end.. perhaps the secret prize for me is coming soon.. i can only keep my fingers crossed...

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

Till the day my life is through, this i promise you......

its so surreal the feeling sometimes.. i cannot describe it.. sometimes you made me so real.. but sometimes you seem so far that i'm unable to feel and touch you.. stop torturing us and let me know how you really feel.. why reject the feeling when both of us know it should be the way.. the way we both want and yet you so consistently fight against.. i am becoming disillusioned.. just hope that you can face up to your real feelings..

however, as i said, i will respect your decision always.. no matter wat..~

Richieously Yours,
Richard

Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight, Till tomorrow I'll be holding you tight...~..~