time flies.. its 3 full years since i work and then i realise that i've not had a good rest.. when i say good rest, it means i go abroad for holiday.. just laze there and do nothing.. yes i've not done that for 3 long years and i am surprised at my endurance.. finally, there is one trip coming up which i'm planning with my buddies.... we could be going to guangzhou in April and this time, i'm keeping my fingers crossed.. i really hope that this time, i can go... really....

btw, to the ppl living in shichuan, happy niu year to you guys.. i know its a bad year for all of you after that devasting earthquake and i hope you guys can get over it and live on bravely. hope to visit that place one day too as i heard abt the beautiful scenery.. Carez..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

Niu year has finally arrived.. somehow i dun think it does affect me too much.. i also cant understand y some ppl want to celebrate it.. i mean is it even a good year to begin with with all the turmoil in the market now? i really dunno.... to me, its just normal.

ok.. finally on the topic: am I right to do this? the person who broke me msged me and emailed me greetings of new year.. usually, i would take the very first moment to reply.. but somehow, at this very moment, i stopped myself. i noticed she emailed me first.. i didnt reply as i wasnt checking my mails till today.. then she smsed me yday.. still i didnt reply.. do i sound petty? i hope not.. as her last words to me cut thru my heart just like a knife, i choose not to reply her. not bcos i'm petty or wat. i just dun want to start all this over again... till this very moment i can still control myself very well.. i dun want to spoil the momentum.. she can think watever she want of me.. petty guy, xiao qi..watever.. let her have all these negative thoughts.. i simply do not care anymore.. at least i choose not to care...

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

~Broken Strings.. ~

its been a while since my last post.. getting abit lazy bcos work has been popping up here and there and like what my boss always like to say, it is a good problem because we still worry abt work while the market is in so deep shit that many ppl are without a job.... so i shldnt complain too much... anyway i love my job so if i slog, i would still be happy...

now more on the topic i would like to comment.. i just saw a documentary this morning on news.. its about ppl leaving their homeland and settle down in a totally different country.. and when i say settle down, it means finding a job there, start a family and have kids.. wow I would say i really take my hat off these ppl.. i mean they really have this courage.. and I notice that they are mostly ang mos.. i guess this is the way they are being brought up, independent.. unlike asians, it would be if not impossible for us to make this kind of decision.. i mean would you really want to give up everything you have here and move over to another country with your loved one?? i mean can you forsake your family, your frenz and everything you are familar with in the first place... i might not have this courage.. at least I'm not ready yet....

Richieously Yours...
Richard

~Who's that girl..

Y2008 is really sucky for me.. i cant wait for it to pass quickly enough.. Y2009 is here. Usually one would set resolutions, targets of what they want to achieve..for me.. i only made one resolution.. of which i wont say it here but i really hope i can achieve.. lets keep my fingers crossed... anyway, Jan 09 sucks for me... i hope by Feb i would be fully healed... perhaps there will always be a scar.. but i hope it would be less painful for me.. hopefully. God plz help.......

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

~My Heart is always searching for U~

you are so cruel.. really....... u left me alone.. in the dark.. breaking my heart with no hesitation, no remorse...just like tat.. so simple.. u squeeze the life out of it.. leaving me breathless.. alone, dark.. alone... now i'm only left with nothing... nothing.. not even memories... how can u be wat u be.. without even considering what i did for u.. have u ever appreciated me? i doubt so.. really doubt so........................

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

"Love is too strong a word to say it too early, but it has too beautiful a meaning to say it too late."

wow. i must say i was blown away.. i'm the most blessed guy at the moment.. i mean, the ger i secretly admire actually asked me for dinner.. we went to an Italian restaurant and the atmosphere is really really good.. i really treasure the chance to have dinner with her.. its like a good start to year 2009! it just give me the energy to carry on...

i ask my 'advisor' opinion and she said since the ger has initiate, i must act like a man and take the lead.. i'm just keeping my fingers crossed that I did not catch the signal wrong.. ok time for me to plan the perfect date.. hopefully she will accept.. I'm praying.. praying real hard... God help~

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

~Revisiting Marina Barrage.. My plan.. maybe..~

yes. i'm back to the circle once again. meaning i'm getting stuck back to the relationship which i try so hard to forget.. but i finally subcumm to it. initially i never thought about it much. but i can now be certain.. it wuld be really really hard if you ask me to live without you.. so for once.. can i ask you not to be selfish.. and think for me once. just this once allow me and give in to me. To be back with me again?

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

~Flightless Bird, American Mouth~

i feel like watching movies is a good way to pass time.. and one can learn so much from watching movies.. at least thats how i feel.. i just finished watching Yes Man, which is a light comedy by Jim Carrey.. the message behind this movie is very simple.. By saying YES, you might lead yourself to windows of opportunities.. its true in a certain sense.. maybe i shld practise saying YES more.. but in a controlled manner i guess..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

~Nothing ever lasts forever..