we are platonic friends but I just can't help to think that if i ever have a wife, she would just be someone like you. I have no other ideas except the pure friendship between us because i know its impossible.. however i just can't help but have this strong feeling.. i really think that you are the best model example i ever wanted to have as a partner and i just hope that the next person who comes along in my life would be someone like you. that would be really good... but for now, I would just treasure our frenship and hope that it will keep going..

and so its really true that when one is down in love, his other side will be up, whichever side one can refer to.. recently i just experience this and i must say how true this is.. Anyway, I would keep working hard to realise my dreams and I'm a born fighter... Moreover, a man is at his most charming when he is working hard in pursuing his dreams..... =)

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

fallen sick this weekend. can't remember exactly when last i fall sick but this got to be one of the worst case scenerios.. i feel drowsy, headache, muscle ache, stomach pain.. seems like all the little problems cranked up in my body.. its been a while since such a thing happen and I happen to be quite fit actually.. but i guess the recent late nights i put in, my body had to pay the dues sometime.. i came to realise that I had worked myself to sickness!!!

there must be a stop. a balance. like yin and yang. boy and girl. but sometimes, i'm quite bad at telling myself to stop. to give in to the body distress signals.. but no, i'm too proud to give in and i just kept pressing on.. foolish perhaps, or maybe dumb..

i realise that I've been working my ass off for 4 years 4 months, without taking consecutive more than 3 days of rest, and less than perhaps 14 days of mc.. I have been bad to myself. sometimes, i just wish that i can give it all up and just let go, carry a bag and go wandering around the world..

but life doesn't work out this way. sadly u got to pay your dues first. whether you like it anot. all my life, i know i'm the type who cant stop, who cannot stop. i have to slog. but for how long? there seems to be no light at the end of the tunnel.. i wish there is a sign... a sign that i can acknowledge..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.