Friday night.. the old me would be out chilling with my frenz and drinking the hell out of nothing.. but now, ever since i move on.. i've been good.. leading a good boy's life.. perhaps too good.. i think being good reaps no reward.

perhaps its time i revert back to my old self? is it time.?. i ask myself.. i really need to sort out my thoughts.. wat is becoming of me.. haiz. right now I'm feeling quite low.. happiness index certainly at a historic low.. all these events that happen to me.. i dun think i deserve it.. something must be done....

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

1 Litre of Tears~

Yes.. I had a heart to heart discussion with my boss.. overall she is satisified with my performance and she has confirmed me, saying that i have the potential to lead my own team in future.. I am delighted. but she made one comment at the end of my appraisal..

she say that because of my boyish looks, ppl dun take me seriously and i need to build up this part in order to improve on my "branding".. I checked up the dictionary and this word implies the difference between a "man" and a "boy".. Its not my fault that I look boyish or baby face.. its the way I am.. what can i do.. But overall I'm glad to be confirmed... 5 months of hardwork is all worth it when I hear my appraisal..

ok enough about my career.. no matter how successful i am, somehow i feel that a part of me is missing.. the missing part is someone to share all my joy and achievement.. life is fair i guess. u lose some, u gain some.. but i dun want to admit that.. not me..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

You passed me by and your heart as cold as ice.

it has been a hectic day for me as usual.. tomor is my confirmation discussion with my Manager and wish myself luck that i would pass her assessment... :)

anyway back to today's topic.. my colleague told me that I can charm alot of gers with my outlook.. but a big question mark ? still hangs over my head.. I can be considered moderately successful.. I'm not considered too ugly looking.. but somehow my luck with gers i like always fall short.. is it because i flirt too much or my eyes waver too much? i dunno.. thats me however...

anyway, i take it as a hint of compliment but I shall remain modest, after all, i am not having much success with gers.. *ponders*

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,No promises.

I'm back to blogging again.. now I'm addicted to penning my thoughts just like last time.. its a way to let my feelings known when i find it hard to express to people about my thougths.. today i shall talk about my thoughts on the word "Believe". It is actually a very powerful word which drives me on everyday.. and i still believe in the word "Believe"..

recently i've understand another layer of meaning of this word.. although "Believe" enables you to achieve the things you strive for, it is very often at the expense of others that sometimes it can hurt the other party.. so what you believe to be true in the first place might not be so true after all..

I'm rather impressed with myself that I can think of such "chim" meaning but well, thats me you know.. always full of surprises..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

Nothing left but pieces of you

i didnt realise my buddy hanjie left a comment until i came back to read my blog again.. haha.. didnt know he is still interested in what i'm writing here.. lolz.. anyway thanks i hope i dun lan ga again la.. very bad experience last time..

so i've been lazy again.. I've decided that i will write this blog only for my eyes and for my eyes only unless some stranger chance upon it.. which i doubt so.. ok.. so what am i going to write about today? I'm 25 years now. achieve a couple of things that my peers didnt achieve.. and yet I'm still not satisified.. i dunno why.. i have high ambitions and i feel frustrated if i cant achieve them.. the feeling SUCKS! thats why i constantly push myself to achieve the next level... sometimes its so bad for myself and I will feel so empty pursuing all these material pleasures... haiz.

recently a lot of things happen to make me realise that sometimes, certain things are not really beyond my means even though i try hard and believe I can make it work.. its like putting in all the effort and blood inside and still, fruits will not bear.. wat to do? life is all about trying, its really all about trying...

yes.. i'm back to blogging after mia for a long long time... haha.. a lot of things happen during 2008.. i bought myself a car.. change myself a job.. well 2 big moves in my life.. hehe.. but i'm glad i made the moves because so far it has been justified.. I told myself that i will get my first car at age 25 and i did it.. i've changed my job from UPS to ST Electronics.. another step for me.. well wats next? seriously I've no idea and thats life really.. to quote it from the forest gump movie : "Life Is like a Box of Chocolates... You Never Know What You're Gonna Get!"