recently i noticed that my anger burstouts is getting out of control.. i used to be like that 2 years ago.. whereby i couldnt control myself from bursting out.. and then i tone down, cool down.. until one of my very old frenz say the flame in me has died.. i dunno what changed me last time, perhaps i tell myself that i'm getting older and so i must control myself before i act...

unfortunately, i realise that the anger is slowly creeping back into me these days.. i dunno wat happen and i can become frustrated, impatient, angry easily and i would just burst out.. many times i know what i'm saying or feeling is rite but its the way i put it.. i will be very direct and i dun care abt other ppl's feelings.. in other words, i just shoot...

the old me is creeping back.. i dunno what is the catalyst but its back.. i cant seem to control it.. i need to breathe deep now.. tell myself to calm down..

yday i just told off a colleague of mine.. and the thing is, i dun feel any remorse... wtf.. i think she totally deserves to be told off... someone must tell her in her thick mind that whatever she has been thinking its right to do has to stop now..

okok.. i dun want to be the bad guy.. i will keep my anger in control.... for now..

oh no.. i'm one year wiser, not older.. i keep telling myself this.. ok i'm not scared of getting old actually.. cos it only mean i'm one step closer to realise my bigger dreams.. lolz.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

the title reads: "ok its been a while.." meaning its been a while since my last post... recently there is nothing special for me to talk about.. except that i feel the old me in my last job is coming back slowly.. which is a good sign because last time life was more colorful... haha..

ok there are a couple of movies i want to catch up..
1. Marley and Me. (ya i know this is cheesy but i like romantic films)
2. Suspect X (heard this is good)
3. Watchman (they took quite sometime to produce this movie.. it better be good)

a couple of things i want to buy:
1. A camera (my last free gift camera is not working!)
2. A bluetooth for my motorola Q9h (i just bought one at the IT Show)
3. A rolex watch (yupz.. i'm a sucker for rolex, i was thinking omega also not bad)
4. A pair of leather shoes (hugo boss will be nice.. but its going to burn a hole)
5. nice rims for my car
6. body kit for my car

ok let's do this one step at a time.. take it slow....

u received my sms.. u reply the very first instant, which has not happen for so long. i guess you are feeling happy and surprised to receive my sms.. maybe u are longing for it.. i dunno.. u say its nice i remember.. i dunno wat does it mean.. i dun want to read too much into it.. i dun want to guess anymore..

reality hit me.. its coming to 3 months already and u are still in my mind.. i shld let go.. deal with it and get on with life like a man.. i shld go out to meet more ppl.. no point harping on the past.. my rainbow days would come soon.. i guess..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

~ No Promises, baby now i need to hold u tight, i just want to die in your arms, here tonite..~

its 25 minutes to go before your birthday according to the time on my com.. i've been counting down.. even switch on my computer to type this entry even though my eyelids are heavy and my body is crying out to rest.. but i fight the urge.. my spirit is always stronger than my body.. and I've finished typing the sms in my phone.. just waiting to send out when the clock strikes 12.. am i pathetic.. i dunno.. i only know anyone would be happy to receive well wishes greetings on their birthday and u are no exception... so to make u slightly happy (i hope), i will do it..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

~ the only sacrifice in a relationship is a promise~

i have to face this.. i've been lying to myself for so long.. no matter wat happens, i know i would never forget u.. u are always the one for me. let fate work its cause i guess..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.