from now on, i've made a pact to myself. i would never ever call you sister again.. cos i dun want to be just your brother...i want to be someone else, somebody else.. u once told me b4 that you find it hard to accept someone younger than you.. i sense that its not bcos you dun feel abt me. its bcos to you, age is a barrier. why is it a barrier to you i dun understand.. i wish i could understand but i just cant.

but i will try hard.. i know u will know how i feel one day.. i truly know...

Richieosuly Yours,
Richard.

i've been listening to this song dunno for how many times.. i first heard it from the TW Drama "Ai".. i think more than half of the Singapore population is watching this drama faithfully now every weekends.. i dunno what attracts me to keep listening but i just cant stop it..it just stirs the emotions in me..

haiz.. i dun understand y a simple matter is so hard to understand.. must we make things so complicated.. dun understand and dunno why...

why must u think of all these?? cant it be so simple.. i just wish things could be simple..........

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

recently i've been thinking to myself.. am i married to my work? i've being consistently putting in 8hrs a day in my work for almost everyday that its eating into my personal life.. i just cant seem to control myself.. i am a control freak.. if there is something to be completed on the actual day, i will do it and if i cant complete it, it makes a total wreck out of me... i told myself i got to take things easy.. its always my aspiration to climb the corp ladder but sometimes when you look back and down, a lot of things more precious r left neglected.. recently i'm thinking that i've been forgoing quite a few things that i forgot the simple pleasures in life..

this is not going to happen anymore... life is all about balance, the yin and yang.. i want to work towards that...






Richieously Yours,
Richard.

have u heard of the story of the penguins before.. penguins are actually quite romantic creatures.. at least in my view.. penguins are are devoted creatures. once they found their partner, the one, they would stick with the partner for life.. they would stay together in the cold, and start a family.. then they would lay the eggs.. the penguins would take turns to sit on the eggs to keep it warm, while one of them would take turns to go to the sea to hunt for food.. but what the other party dunno is there may be a chance that its partner would never return from the food trip... thats because there is a high possibility that the penguin would be eaten by sea lions and become the hunted.. if the penguin never return, its partner would wait forever in the cold and never give up..

I think this is really romantic.. but such acts are few and far in the modern world.. would you wait for the penguin...?





Richieously Yours,
Richard.

okay i have been lazy to blog recently because i 've been bogged down by my wisdom tooth surgery which I'm glad is finally over.. i knew this problem since last year but I have been deluding myself thinking that if i practice careful oral care, i would not have to undergo extraction of 4 teeth.. but nevertheless, the demons came back to haunt me.. until recently i have my regular dental checkup and my dentist told me that my back tooth is decaying, i knew this is it... so after undergoing surgery in a 2 week interval, and losing pints of blood (okay a bit exaggerating i know..), i finally got rid of the 4 stupid tooth thats causing me much misery..

i am now recuperating at home.. doing nothing.. doing nothing can be a bliss u know. to break free from work once in a while.. but i'll be back soon hopefully...

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

Turn down the lights, turn down the bed
Turn down these voices inside my head
Lay down with me, tell me no lies
Just hold me close, don't patronize - don't patronize me

Chorus: cause i can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and i'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't
'cause i can't make you love me, if you don't

I'll close my eyes, then i won't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and i'll do what's right
Just give me till then to give up this fight
And i will give up this fight

Chorus: cause i can't make you love me if you don't
You can't make your heart feel something it won't
Here in the dark, in these lonely hours
I will lay down my heart and i'll feel the power
But you won't, no you won't'cause i can't make you love me, if you don't

Bonnie Raitt

This song got me hooked up.. i think everyone should go listen it if got the chance..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

time flies, I left UPS for slightly longer than a year ago.. yet I've still managed to maintain close contact with my frenz there.. friendship is something that money cant buy, at least i choose to believe it this way.. it needs time to nurture. speaking of this, I'm quite disappointed with certain group of frenz who forgot this rule.. well i guess people move on, either in a right or left way..

i was thinking abt the days whereby life for me was a challenge everyday.. i have to juggle between studies and work.. there was never a doubt i cant handle it but i'm glad that i made it in the end.. i just cant but rem those days whereby i share with the gang.. although we have to constantly mug the notes and books, we do share times of happiness whereby we enjoy our little breaks of snacks and bo liao gossip. it was kinda of the good old days and i miss it a little. nevertheless, life moves on and these are just the little thoughts that add colors to my life..

Richieoulsy Yours,
Richard.

i just read an article in a magazine.. there are really 2 toys that a man would want in his life.. and that would be cars and watches.. its always like comparing who have the fiercest cars or biggest watches.. haha.. somehow i agree with this statement.. if its up to me, there are 2 things which i really like to own now...

Car: Nissan GTR aka Godzilla..
this is such a sexy car with a powerful engine that would definitely smoke all the wrxs and evos wannabes on the road..well it also costs a cool $250k.. lolz. dunno how long it would take for me to earn this obsecene amt of $ but i will work towards my dream.. i am such a sucker for cars.

Watch: Rolex Oyster Perpetual Date, "GMT Master 2" in Steel
okay i found this watch on the internet. i feel that every man should own at least 1 rolex.. its the da ge da of all watches.. of course i know there are alot more swiss brand watches which we never ever heard of and costs alot more.. but what the hell.. if no one hears of it, u wear one ppl would still think its a pasa malam watch.. so a rolex would fit just nice.. and the cost: a cool $7k.. and its second hand somemore lor.. kaoz.

ok work towards it ba..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

decided to name this post random.. thats bcos i feel like pouring watever i can think of in this post.. so let me think thru what i've done during the weekend..

Fri 19 jun 09
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Well, i met my old UPS mates.. we went to one jap restaurant named Honjin in the CBD area.. to be frank, I'm so totally not familar with this steel jungle.. its like a different ball game for me.. so i spend some time going round in circles exploring the busiest part of singapore.. i must say the road design there really needs improvement.. its so unfriendly for drivers bcos almost all the roads are one-way.. WTH... ok back to the UPS mates.. met up with belina, isaac, cindy, Elston and Brandon.. so long never see these guys already.. the dinner is so-so la.. ala-carte jap buffet but the food is like not so fantastic.. somemore at the end then i realise per head costs us over $60 bucks.. i was like....... luckily, uob card got 1-for-1 but i still think not worth it lei...

after that, i suggested we go Mandarin Oriental to chill. there is this lounge area whereby we enjoy our tea and cocktail and some liveband music.. whereby the drink prices are nothing but murderous.. its just like paying for the atmosphere and music tats all.. i wouldnt recommend to anyone seeking something economical.. its like committing a sin spending this obscene amt of $$ on something so normal.. anyway, guess we enjoyed the music and sipping the tea and indugle myself sinfully on the durian moouse cake.. lolz..

after that, its like 1am liao.. we still went to marina square to play pool and arcade.. had a fun time teaching belina how to play pool.. hehe.. but i must say shes a fast learner.. i can see signs of potential.. i am not that good myself in pool la but to "bian chi bian he" i am still okay.. arcade was like we really have nothing to do then play lor.. its quite bo liao actually.. well fri nites can be such a bore cos in SG, theres really nothing much to do at nite except club and eat.. kaoz..

ok, ciaoz. thinking tmr is monday is giving me all the blues liao.....

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

ok.. i know i have been lazy updating my blog.. but for a good reason because i've been engulfed by work.. it is taking a huge part of my life and right now I'm trying to make things right and so to give myself more time.. ok back to this post's main topic!

i believe its really hard for 2 people with different ideas to work together.. if it happens.. is it time to move on? i dunno...

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

Ok.. this post has been long waited.. the reason why i blog for my own eyes to see its because i want to keep these memories and 1 day, i can just login to my very own site.. blogging is more dynamic than writing a diary, anyway who writes diary nowadays.. well some photos here of our clubbing nite.. only pick a few bcos the rest cannot be shown... hahaha... not suitable, R21 only.. hehe, just kidding..


Me and Clara jie jie, yes I am drunk already and she wants to kiss me.. of course la cos i helped her "ta" so many drinks that nite lor..


I really like this photo.. so classic lor.. its like taking a walk down memory lane and we are all pretending to act cute.. hehe.


all of us have a great time, although i think i'm the most drunk.. thats' the consequences to be the only guy among the ladies.. my destiny la...

Well time flies and you sisters shall always be my treasured frenz.. no matter wat... so long and see you gers in our next crazy nite.. hopefully it will be soon.. hehe..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

Phew.. finally graduated from uni..those past 2 years were hell but you have to walk thru' hell to become stronger they say.. i must say I've done well and give myself a pat on my shoulder.. I've graduated with 2nd class upper honors.. nothing more i can ask for right.. heres some photos.. I'm still waiting for the photograph which i paid the studio $90 for.. it better turn out to be good...


With Clara and 2 of my other classmates...


With my favorite Prof Brahim whom i believe holds one of the best minds in maths...


With the chancellor.. noticed that i dun have many guy frenz in sch.. ya all my close frenz are ladies...

ok.. to blog about my batam trip.. actually this is only my 2nd time going travelling with my frenz.. the first time is with my army guards frenz and we went to bintan. this time is wif 2 of my best frenz from sec sch Gary and Berd. i think i really deserve this trip.. i've been working hard for the past year and this trip is just great to de-stress myself.. ok i will let the pics do the talking...

Its been a while since i blog as i was busy with work.. nowadays, my knock off time is about 8pm average everyday.. its very unhealthy i know but what can i do... haiz. i will try my best as much as possible to achieve work life balance but all these is easier said than done.. but i will still try.. so i will recap here some of the memories that i have last fri.. after finish my company whereby my boss made me the Chief Event Planner again, i drag my tired body to meet up with the gers from my uni class.. despite spending 2 years in uni, i have more gal frenz than guy frenz.. quite unbelievable actually... anyway back to meeting the gers...


we meet to collect our grad gown first at a ulu studio in lavendar.. almost couldnt find the place if i never looked into the road map in the 1st place.. haha.. after collecting gown, rush off to boat quay to have dinner.. decided on having Italian food.. dun ask me why cos i got this review from Hungrygowhere.com which says its good.. to be honest, i think the food so-so la, except ambience is good..Its called Ricciotti.. sounds high class right.. anyway heres the place




The layout is kind of classy, but i must say the price is a bit steep la...



From (top-left clockwise) Joanne, Clara jie jie, Me, Cynthia, Pearlyn and Elaine

I think Clara's camera is quite good.. we look fab in this photo.. cant wait to see you gers again this sat during grad ceremony..hehe

after dinner, me and clara head off to JabOne fo 2nd round meeting Ziying and the gang.. not very familiar with them la but as i was invited, must be there to show some face rite.. lolz.. really a turning into a tired nite liao cos next day still have to go Batam with the gang and i haven packed..

NEXT Post: Batam Trip

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

recently heard this on a commercial that the tv is broadcasting.. i must say the advertisement is really creative and in the end promotes the values of family..but it is this little phrase that captures my attention.. 'little imperfections that makes life perfect..' i mean.. really? is it true?? i'm a perfectionist and i'm proud of it.. but one fren recently told me that being perfect is a kind of imperfection.. .I'm so confused.. all along i have been pursuing perfection in my life and then the truth hit me hard.. in life, nothing is perfect.. whether you are rich or poor, handsome or ugly, thin or fat.. watever.. nothing is perfect.. so why am i still trying so hard everyday to reach perfection... i wonder.......

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

ok. time flies.. its april now and it would be just 3 mths later for my 1 year stay in this co.. its scary that time passes by so quickly that u didnt even notice it..

anyway next week is one hell of a hectic week for me.. i'll be organising the company event next fri.. after that i need t o collect my graduation gown, go eat dinner with my frenz, after that have to meet another group of frenz to go party.. next morning (sat) i have to rush to harborfront to board ferry to go batam for relaz session.. packed... i like my days packed.. haha..

and after this coming week, my graduation ceremony will happen.. FINALLY! going to get my degree after 2 years of no life study.. lolz.. ok more on that later..

Richieously Yours,
Richard.

thought i have recovered well from my wounds.. occassionally the memories will flow back and i will smile silly at myself.. alot of 'what ifs' begin to form in my brain..

what if i am courageous enuff.
what if you are willing to try it out for me..
what if we dun care abt matters and just embrace one another..
what if.. what if...

i know this post sounds silly but to me, life is all about what ifs... therefore i tell myself that i will not let what ifs stop me now from doing anything i want.. after all, life is short and we should not let ourselves down.. u never try, u never know.. what if...

Richieously Yours,
Richard